Diario di una quarantenne in quarantena

Il mutamento

anche se non mi hai mai detto resta

Anche se non mi hai mai detto resta

Anche se non mi hai mai detto resta , io per molto tempo sono rimasta ferma ad aspettare un tuo gesto , un tuo respiro , qualcosa che ti facesse accorgere di me ,

qualcosa che potesse farti tornare.

Ma sai la vita va avanti inesorabilmente anche se noi non lo vogliamo .

Sono passati giorni dal nostro silenzio e vorrei dirti , anzi raccontarti tante cose quelle che mi sono accadute , in questo silenzio tra noi.

Sai ho tagliato i capelli , questo look 70’s mi piace mi dona un area hippy che mi piace .

Ho un nuovo tatuaggio, l’ennesimo come dice Amir , si lui li odia ma io li amo alla follia.

Ho tatuato una conchiglia mi ricorda il mare , le passeggiate ,il profumo dell’aria fresca anche se pioveva.

Mi vesto diversamente , ho abbandonato le tute ora metto solo pantaloni stretti e top corti , la mia magrezza androgina mi piace e noto che piace anche agli altri.

Non so se mi guardano perche’ sono piatta o perche’ sono bella ma poco importa, mi trucco si

mi trucco spesso , in modo leggero quasi a coprire il dolore passato , ma mi trucco non riesco ad uscire senza.

Quasi a volermi proteggere dagli sguardi degli altri.

Ho cambiato profumo , anche se spesso annuso la boccetta di quello che ti piaceva tanto , ricordo le parole ogni volta che lo mettevo e poi la chiudo e con essa chiudo anche i ricordi.

Ha sempre lo sguardo assorto , malinconico ma quello non riesco a cambiarlo fa parte di me , spesso fisso il vuoto ,

ma solo perche’ i pensieri si affollano tutti disordinati e sempre incasinati.

Ho chiesto scusa per i miei errori , tanti a molte persone e poco importa se loro lo abbiano accettato ma io ne avevo bisogno ,

per camminare avanti e non guardare piu’ solo verso una direzione.

Non sono sola

Sai c’è Amir qui con me , ho accettato la sua presenza, lui si prende cura di me .

Mi ricorda di prendere le medicine , lo sento la notte mentre mi controlla se respiro , se dormo serena .

Non sono sola , lui mi fa ridere con la sua aria seria e sempre cosi perfetta completamente differente da me.

Esco esco di piu’ , bevo e lui mi ripete ” hey peste controllati!”

Spesso cammino in modo distratto tra la folla , spero di incontrare i tuoi occhi distrattamente , magari uno sguardo che possa ricordarmi te , ma non importa

la vita va avanti inesorabilmente.

Parlo poco , sai non sono cosi logorroica come prima , ma non perche’ non abbia nulla da dire , ma preferisco i silenzi , preferisco

raccontare le mie disavventure ad Amir che le vive spesso con me.

Come quando per la forte pioggia ci siamo dovuti fermare in autostrada , non si vedeva nulla si sentiva solo la pioggia battere con forza sull’auto , pensavo ma finira’ mai questo?

si alla fine è finita , come ogni cosa ha un inizio e poi per quanto non lo vogliamo anche una fine.

A si dimenticavo non ho smesso di sorridere , anche se lo faccio come se fosse un obbligo nei miei confronti ,

non ho smesso di sorridere per andare  avanti anche se non mi hai mai detto resta .

il quaderno delle parole mai dette

 

Comments

comments

https://www.manzara.it/abiti/abiti-mini/abito-a-quadretti-vickey-multicolore

61 risposte a “Diario di una quarantenne in quarantena”

  1. I loved as much as you’ll receive carried out right here.
    The sketch is tasteful, your authored subject matter stylish.
    nonetheless, you command get got an impatience over that you wish
    be delivering the following. unwell unquestionably come further formerly again since exactly the same nearly a lot
    often inside case you shield this hike.

  2. It’s going to be ending of mine day, however before finish I am reading this enormous article
    to increase my knowledge.

  3. Hi there, I found your web site by means of Google even as searching for
    a comparable subject, your site came up, it looks good. I have bookmarked it in my google
    bookmarks.
    Hi there, just became alert to your weblog thru Google,
    and found that it is really informative. I am gonna watch out for brussels.
    I’ll be grateful should you continue this in future.
    Numerous folks can be benefited from your writing. Cheers!

  4. Hi there this is kind of of off topic but I was wondering if blogs use
    WYSIWYG editors or if you have to manually code
    with HTML. I’m starting a blog soon but have no coding
    experience so I wanted to get advice from someone with experience.
    Any help would be greatly appreciated!

  5. Hello! I could have sworn I’ve been to this web site before but after browsing through many of the
    posts I realized it’s new to me. Anyways, I’m certainly happy I
    came across it and I’ll be bookmarking it and checking back frequently!

  6. Hi, just wanted to tell you, I loved this article.
    It was inspiring. Keep on posting!

  7. hello!,I like your writing very a lot! percentage we keep up a correspondence extra
    about your article on AOL? I need an expert in this house to resolve my problem.
    May be that is you! Taking a look forward to peer you.

  8. Very great post. I simply stumbled upon your weblog and
    wanted to say that I’ve truly enjoyed surfing around your weblog posts.
    In any case I will be subscribing on your feed and I hope you write once more very
    soon!

  9. Please let me know if you’re looking for a article author for your site.
    You have some really good posts and I believe I would be a good asset.
    If you ever want to take some of the load off,
    I’d really like to write some content for your blog in exchange for a link back to mine.
    Please shoot me an email if interested. Many thanks!

  10. I do trust all of the ideas you have presented in your post.
    They’re really convincing and will certainly work.
    Still, the posts are too brief for starters. May just you please lengthen them a bit
    from next time? Thank you for the post.

  11. Hello to every single one, it’s actually a good for me to visit this web site, it contains valuable Information.

  12. If you would like to get much from this paragraph then you have to apply these methods to your
    won blog.

  13. Magnificent beat ! I wish to apprentice even as you amend your site, how can i
    subscribe for a weblog website? The account aided me a acceptable deal.
    I were a little bit acquainted of this your broadcast provided vivid transparent idea

  14. Right here is the right blog for everyone who wants to find out
    about this topic. You know so much its almost hard to argue with you (not that I really will need to…HaHa).
    You definitely put a new spin on a topic which has been written about
    for many years. Excellent stuff, just excellent!

  15. Have you ever considered publishing an e-book or guest authoring on other sites?
    I have a blog based upon on the same topics you discuss and would
    love to have you share some stories/information. I know my readers would appreciate your work.
    If you are even remotely interested, feel free to shoot me an e-mail.

  16. Attractive portion of content. I just stumbled
    upon your blog and in accession capital to say that I get in fact loved account your blog posts.
    Anyway I will be subscribing for your augment and even I
    success you get right of entry to persistently rapidly.

  17. I always spent my half an hour to read this weblog’s
    articles every day along with a cup of coffee.

  18. Greetings from California! I’m bored at work so I
    decided to check out your site on my iphone during lunch break.
    I really like the information you present here and can’t wait to take a look when I get
    home. I’m surprised at how quick your blog loaded on my cell phone ..
    I’m not even using WIFI, just 3G .. Anyways,
    amazing site!

  19. Useful info. Fortunate me I discovered your website accidentally, and I am stunned why
    this twist of fate did not came about earlier!
    I bookmarked it.

  20. Wow that was strange. I just wrote an really long comment but after I clicked submit
    my comment didn’t show up. Grrrr… well I’m not writing all that over again. Anyways,
    just wanted to say wonderful blog!

  21. Keep on writing, great job!

  22. hello there and thank you for your info – I’ve definitely picked up something
    new from right here. I did however expertise a few technical
    issues using this web site, as I experienced to reload
    the website many times previous to I could get it to load correctly.
    I had been wondering if your hosting is OK? Not
    that I’m complaining, but slow loading instances times will often affect your placement in google and could damage your high
    quality score if advertising and marketing with Adwords.
    Anyway I’m adding this RSS to my email and
    could look out for a lot more of your respective exciting content.
    Ensure that you update this again very soon.

  23. I blog often and I truly appreciate your information. This article has truly peaked my interest.
    I am going to book mark your blog and keep checking for new details about once
    a week. I subscribed to your RSS feed as well.

  24. Article writing is also a excitement, if you be acquainted with after
    that you can write otherwise it is complicated to write.

  25. paypal kamagra [url=https://buycialikonline.com]cialis 20mg for sale[/url]

  26. What a stuff of un-ambiguity and preserveness of valuable knowledge regarding unexpected emotions.

  27. Fantastic goods from you, man. I’ve understand your stuff previous to and you’re just too excellent.
    I really like what you’ve acquired here, certainly like what
    you are saying and the way in which you say it. You make it enjoyable
    and you still care for to keep it sensible.
    I can not wait to read far more from you. This
    is really a great website.

  28. I really like what you guys are usually up too. This sort
    of clever work and exposure! Keep up the wonderful works guys I’ve
    included you guys to blogroll.

  29. It’s very effortless to find out any matter on web
    as compared to books, as I found this piece of writing at this web site.

  30. Unquestionably believe that which you said. Your favorite justification appeared to be on the internet the easiest thing to be aware of.
    I say to you, I certainly get annoyed while people
    think about worries that they plainly don’t know about.
    You managed to hit the nail upon the top and also defined out the whole thing without having
    side effect , people could take a signal. Will probably be back to get more.
    Thanks

  31. Aw, this was a very good post. Taking the time and actual effort to generate a
    good article… but what can I say… I procrastinate a whole lot and never manage to get anything done.

  32. Your style is unique compared to other people I have
    read stuff from. Thanks for posting when you’ve got the opportunity, Guess I will just book mark this page.

  33. I visited many blogs however the audio feature for audio songs present at this web site is truly superb.

    Feel free to visit my blog special

  34. I do trust all of the ideas you have offered to your post.
    They’re really convincing and can definitely work. Nonetheless, the
    posts are too quick for beginners. May you please extend them a little from subsequent time?

    Thank you for the post.

  35. Ridiculous quest there. What occurred after?
    Good luck!

  36. Fabulous, what a webpage it is! This webpage provides useful facts to us, keep it up.

  37. Howdy just wanted to give you a brief heads up and let you
    know a few of the images aren’t loading properly.
    I’m not sure why but I think its a linking issue.

    I’ve tried it in two different web browsers and both show the same
    results.

  38. Hello, everything is going well here and ofcourse every
    one is sharing information, that’s truly fine, keep up writing.

  39. I simply could not leave your web site before suggesting that I actually loved the usual info a person provide in your guests?
    Is going to be back ceaselessly to check up on new posts

    Look at my site tracfone

  40. I like the helpful info you provide in your articles. I will bookmark your weblog and check again here regularly.

    I’m quite certain I will learn a lot of new stuff
    right here! Best of luck for the next!

  41. Right away I am going to do my breakfast, after having
    my breakfast coming again to read more news.

  42. buy rocaltrol online cheap rocaltrol 0.25 mg us purchase rocaltrol without prescription

  43. buy zithromax 500mg sale azithromycin online buy order gabapentin 600mg pill

  44. brand furosemide 40mg doxycycline 200mg cheap stromectol 3 mg

  45. atorvastatin 20mg for sale purchase viagra without prescription sildenafil australia

  46. order lisinopril 5mg for sale cialis dosage 40 mg order tadalafil 5mg pills

  47. lopressor 50mg without prescription brand vardenafil 10mg methylprednisolonee online

  48. order clomid 100mg without prescription pregabalin pills pregabalin 150mg usa

  49. buy triamcinolone generic buy priligy 90mg for sale priligy price

  50. cytotec order synthroid 100mcg drug generic levothyroxine

  51. zovirax 400mg price zyloprim us zyloprim pills

  52. rosuvastatin over the counter order domperidone 10mg sale buy tetracycline 500mg

  53. order lioresal for sale generic viagra 50mg buy viagra 150mg

  54. cialis sales cialis ca toradol medication

  55. order cialis 5mg online cheap buy toradol generic buy toradol 10mg sale

  56. You’re so awesome! I do not suppose I have read something like that before.
    So great to discover someone with original thoughts on this
    topic. Seriously.. thank you for starting this up.
    This website is something that’s needed on the web, someone with some
    originality!

    my website: tracfone special coupon 2022

  57. colchicine generic colchicine for sale online methotrexate cheap

Lascia un commento